Back to normal!

What back to normal? Me lah! Still a bit sore throat but it will get better la. So i slim down 2 kg and it took me like one week of starving to slim down this 2 kg. But tell you la... this 2 kg very easy to gain back...as i got my appetite back. And i 'm glad cos i sick of starving all the time but i couldnt eat ler. Last night, my hubby took me to Pizza Hut for dinner. While waiting for the pizza, i asked him why he didnt feel heartache that i sick till lose weight.... Before he could answer me i adi start to blabbering about how he will feel heartache last time when i was sick. There was a time i was hospitalised, and got needles poking everywhere on my arms...That time he was so sad to see me in pain and getting thinner and thinner. That time really drop a lot of weight from 60 kg to 51 kg.... I can see tears in his eyes when see me suffering like that.. But ... that was like years ago....... i can't really remember the feeling anymore and best is not to remember cos that time really struggle in pain. But sometimes it hard not to remember that time....cos that time is the time i accepted my hubby and the time he make me so touched ler. After listening to me blabbering about the past, hubby said " I know you lost weight la, that why i bring you over to had your favourite pizza. Let you eat till fat fat!". Although i know he jus simply say out, but still happy to listen to these words. You all think he really, wanna let me eat till fat fat kah? Actually he is the one craving for pizza le...

We went to the Prangin Mall- Pizza Hut. I knew he gotto leave as soon as we finish the pizza. I told him, leave me in Prangin Mall as i want to ronda and i will take the bus home. He call me dun bullshit! What la! i really wan to walk around lei! He wont let me take bus cos i had bad experience, there's a time i fainted in Komtar when i loiter alone. Since that he wont let me take bus alone and also dont let me retake my car and bike license too. He rather be my driver. Then i told him, i call my friends to fetch me back cos i got lots of friends working in Prangin Mall, they can fetch me back after work. He said...no need ma huan ppl. He said i like to ronda so much, he will drop me off 10 a.m next weekend and will pick me up at 10.p.m. You see la! Now he is the one bullshit eh!

Sometimes his attitude like this makes me think he does'nt care as much as last time. And that makes me cant accept it and often thought of the past. But actually he still cares jus that he is not gentle like last time anymore. The words he use are harsh... Sometimes i can tolerate ,but sometimes i can't and i will be harsh with him too. Aiyah... maybe all relationships will be like that after certain period.

Now i realize i blog out of title.............but nevermind la.........lazy to think of a new title liao