Friday, September 26, 2008

Hoping for another miracle...

My grandma has not been very well. Before she was admitted to the hospital she was bedridden for a few days in her room. Usually if my grandma was feeling well she will get up sitting on her wheel chair and tune in to her favourite channel for the hokkien dramas. When she was not watching dramas, she will think of what she wanna eat and hoping that we will buy it for her. We don't always buy all food she requested cos mostly the food she requested is not proper for her health. She don't care that much, cos she thought her days were not long, so she wan to enjoy eating what she love. But of cos we as her children and grand children we had to take care of her health and does not hope she will leave us so soon.

My grandma had lots of sickness, diabetic, hypertension, arthritis and colon cancer. When she knew she had colon cancer she choose not to operate. Like she always said she is old and couldn't live any longer, if she choose to operate she will had to under-go chemotherapy. And everyone knew chemotherapy had side effects which is very suffering.

Today i went to the hospital to visit grandma, she was no longer the grandma that can request to eat this and that. She is no longer the grandma that keep moaning in pain event hough she's not in pain ( she did that to get our attention). She's oso no longer the grandma that sits in front of the tv most of the time. Last few days, my aunt told us that grandma did not wanna talk anymore. When you talk to her she will jus stared at you but she still will response when you ask her certain questions. But today, we greet her, shook her arms she did not response. And she oso had difficulty in breathing.

We consult the doctor, the doctor told us she is semi-concious now. As for the difficulty in breathing it might be pneunomia or the cancer had spread to the lungs. The doctor told us he could do anything further to treat the cancer if my grandma does not wanna operate. But if is jus pneunomia they will give her the best treatment. As for the cancer, they can only give her morphine to ease the pain. He told us to be mentally prepared, and if can let her go comfortably without any pipes to support. I was holding back my tears when i heard this.

Previously my grandma had survived a few critical moments. I really hope another miracle will happen. I hope my grandma will survived this time but at the same time also I don't wan my grandma to continue to suffer. Sigh!

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Tau Sar Phneah said...

pls extend my best wishes to your ah ma...hope she will get back alright... :)

Kikey Loo said...

so sad to hear that...
hnkp, pls take care...

Constance Chan said...

that is so sad. perhaps semi conscious will be better than to fully suffer the effects. yes chemo usually have so much side effects, some women just lose dignity. but yr grandma must have known it not to have it. guess now if she dont have to suffer it is better. but i know you will all miss her. there is still a place in your heart. be happy for her and keep her there.

take care.

Amy said...

oohh....i feel so sad when hearing this sad news.

Walk the Walk said...

Be strong, my fren...

Anonymous said...

I feel for you and hope you and family will go thru to his with your Ah Ma...take care friend :)

Jipunabor

Joze Foo said...

Thanks my everyone

K3ViN said...

ur post really recall me to my father time... i really understand ur feeling nw.... see him on those pipe n seeing him suffer b4 he went in operation room. Those memory wont be easy wipe out from my memory. I hope u be strong no matter what happen.. We PGHK member will give u a support.

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